Sunday, June 19, 2011

Epilogue Part One Follow Up

Wow. OK. Where do I begin?

Um, I guess I should first apologize for taking so long to post this update. I had absolutely NO idea that it would take me this long. I had every intention of updating two weeks after Chapter 30 went up, but then everything started going crazy with moving and JRFB taking up every minute of my days. But when I sat down to actually write the damn thing, a strange thing happened.

I couldn't.

I tried and wrote and erased and tried again. Nothing was coming out right. After the opening of Epilogue Part One (before it skips to April), everything was coming out a bigger mess than usual. I couldn't fucking figure out what the problem was. And then it hit me about a week ago as I was falling asleep (cuz stupid shit like that keeps me up at night). I couldn't write Chapter 31 because there was no Chapter 31 to write.

What I had originally planned for Chapter 31 is actually pretty boring. It started off with the kids talk, then the band's tour, Comic Con, and fast forward to The Southern Swing Tour where Jackson sorta but not really proposes. I say sorta not really, because there was a giant Fruit Loop in place of a ring and Vegas talk in place of a wedding. The "proposal" was something I was actually really excited about writing, though. Everything else I didn't give a shit about. So, that's how we get to the next paragraph...

Confession: What you read for part one of the Epilogue was actually going to be one of the alternate epilogues I mentioned months ago. While the "proposal" would've been nice and all, it wouldn't have been realistic. For all of the reasons Iris mentions in the chapter, there was no way that I could've included a "proposal" and wedding talk and blah blah blah without feeling like the story got away from me.

When Carrie Underwood's "Play" album dropped, I devoured it. When I heard "Someday When I Stop Loving You," I knew that this chapter was going to exist. There was never a doubt in my mind that the events that took place in it would happen. The lyrics of the song were just too perfect.

Now, as far as future posting dates and specific chapters, here's how it's gonna go: The Graupner POV outtake, which includes Jackson cheating, will post on Saturday the 25th. A secret chapter that's going to embarrass the fuck out of me is going to post the following Saturday, July 2nd. Epilogue Part Two will (hopefully) go up on July 9th. The final five chapters of Jackson POV that were submitted will start posting August 1st at the regular posting schedule as the previous Jackson POVs.

After these are finally posted, I'm done with C, CD. It's been almost two years since I started writing this story, and I honestly thought that it would take me three months AT MOST to get what I wanted out for this fic. The fucker, though, took on a life of itself. I am unbelievably grateful that you guys have stuck it out this long. I read a lot of fics, so I know what it's like to have a story take forever to update and just drag on.

So, that's it for now. As always, I'm on Twitter cuz I'm addicted like a crack whore. Hit me up there.

Oh! Just so you know, I will be responding to reviews left. However, because I'm so far behind, I'll only be answering reviews left for Chapter 28, Epilogue Part One, and Epilogue Part Two (when it posts). I feel bad saying that since I had gone into this thing thinking that I would reply to whatever reviews I garnered. So, I'm very sorry about that. It's not this "My ego has gotten big and I can no longer review reply and mingle with the little folk" sort of thing. I promise.

Now I'm done.

Con Amor Siempre,

Epilogue Part One Extra Goodies

Kenny G
Marilyn Manson
Petrificus Totalus
Mr Wizard
The Bee Gees
Dixie Chicks' "Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)"
Elton John & RuPaul's "Don't Go Breakin My Heart"
Miley Cyrus' "Party In The USA"
Carrie Underwood's "Someday When I Stop Loving You"
Kellan's Calvin Klein billboard
Robert Pattinson's "Never Think"
Adele's "Someone Like You (Live)"

Edward/Bella Fic Recommendations

Inside Man
Pinky Swear (by the AMAZING Kharizzmatik, author of Emancipation Proclamation)
Portrait Of A Girl
Somewhere Only We Know
The Back Road

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Jackson POV Teasers For Fandom4SAA

So, as you guys know, the final five chapters of Closer, Cold Desert in Jackson's POV will be available through @Fandom4SAA. Here you go:

One line teaser for Chapter 26, Joy Ride Part Two:
I could have her dress up, my pants down, be in and out of her, and ready to go in under three minutes.

One line teaser for Chapter 27, All I Want For Christmas Is You:
But it was the best fucking thing to watch her cum so hard, knowing that I was the one that did that.

One line teaser for Chapter 28, Don't Forget About Us:
“I have no say in anything she does now, Ben. Do you get that? She. Fucking. Left. Me!”

Teaser for Chapter 29, HATEU:
“Jackson, what’s wrong?”

“Mama, I have something to tell you,” I mumbled.

“OK. Go on.”

“I… I cheated on Iris.”

You know those moments when everything just goes really quiet, and it feels like time has slowed down, allowing you to think about what to do next? Nobody ever told me that they also scared the living shit out of you.

All I could hear was Mama’s breathing for a few minutes. I recognized it as that breathing thing she does when she’s trying to calm herself down. I waited. And waited. When I couldn’t wait anymore, I dove in.


“You need to talk to your father,” she immediately said.

Before I could respond, I heard her calling Dad’s name.

Fuck fuck fuck.

“It’s your son,” I heard her say.


“She looks ready to spit nails. What’d you do, kid?” he laughed.

One line teaser for Chapter 30, Love Takes Time:
I know I probably should've told her, but the truth is that I actually didn't forget our anniversary.

I'm not going to include a teaser for this Saturday's update in the compilation. After you read the chapter, you'll understand why.

To get Jackson's POV for these five chapters along with hundreds of other submissions for @Fandom4SAA, go HERE to donate. The minimum is $5, and you'll be helping out a wonderful organization. Every little bit helps. Plus, if I decide to post these Jackson POVs up on FFn, it won't be for another 6 months. *nudge nudge* *wink wink*

Con Amor Siempre,

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Another Update About The End Of C, CD

I know I'm a raging douchebag for not having anything to you by now. I'm dealing with a whole host of problems right now, about as much from the last update, so I'm trying to cope. Anyway, here's the deal:

Since I'm not currently working, I'm going to try and get the final chapter done this week. With any luck, I'll have it posted by NEXT Saturday, the 11th. I need time to research. Plus, I'm also betaing two popular stories right now to add to list of things I worry about. So... I have no idea how long the chapter will be. I know what's going to happen and how the story's going to end, but I don't know how many words it'll take to get it all down.

Since I lost everything when my comp and hard drives crashed, I don't have any of the alternate outtake or the two epis anymore. Even still, they're knocking my brain about. They're pretty much written in my head since they've been in there forever, so I know it won't take me long to get those out to you once the final chapter's posted. And I told Juanita how the story ends and what happens in each epilogue. She almost started crying in the middle of Dallas BBQ in Times Square. She cries at everything, like me, so that's doesn't give you any indication how things are gonna roll. LOL

The final six chapters of C, CD will be available in Jackson's POV for @Fandom4SAA. If you wanna know how shit went down in his mind, including the cheating chapter, and you don't wanna wait six months, this is where you need to go. Donate and you'll get the compilation. GREAT cause.

The phone sex outtake from Chapter 28 will post this Saturday, the 4th. Now, it's probably the most sexually graphic thing I've written, which I know isn't saying much but I thought I'd warn you.

Graupner's POV outtake will post two weeks later, the 18th. I'm very excited for you to read this POV, because it's Graupner, and I had a fucking blast poking around in his head (pun not intended but feel free to go with it if you please). Also, it includes Jackson's cheating. It was... a relief, I guess, to write things out from someone's perspective that wasn't Jackson or Iris. It's hard to explain, but maybe you'll get what I'm saying when you read it.

And that's it. I'll see you guys on Twitter. <3

Con Amor Siempre,