Sunday, March 27, 2011

Chapter 29 Follow Up


*clears throat* Ok, I'm calm now. I'm just kidding. I'm really not. The birthday party/baby shower was a success yesterday. Booties and bottles and diapers. Oh my! Add all that to the fact that she almost gave birth late last night, and I'm pretty much wigging the fuck out. O_O

OK, to the actual post...

Like I said, I'm really sorry it took me so long to get this chapter out, but, ya know... Anyway. I don't really have much to say about this chappy, to be honest.

I wanted that first week of Iris going back to the real world after everything went down to seem choppy and robotic, because that's how her mind was working. It'd go from one thought to another, one emotion to another, one memory to another in the matter of a second, so she was all over the place. I was not, by any means, going to have Iris go out and do the cliche thing of getting drunk and/or fucking some random dude to "ease the pain." She's never been that type of person. She will never be the type of person. If she did that, she'd basically be demeaning herself. SO was not gonna happen. Plus, I don't believe that bullshit. "Ease the pain?" Really? Pfffft.

I had to think really hard about how I wanted to end this chapter. It was difficult for me to write, first of all, because I wanted the dialogue to be as real as possible. I didn't want these fake declarations and big words to be thrown in there because 1. That's not Jackris and 2. People who don't really speak that way when they're having an emotionally fueled argument. Second of all, I didn't know if I wanted them to work it out. I'm all for a HEA, but, like I mentioned in the chapter, cheating is something you just come back from. In the end, though, I decided that if these two are able to work through it, then that shows how strong each person is, as well as how tough their love is.

So you know, I listened to some amazing songs while writing this chappy, so I wanted to share those with you:

Lady Antebellum's "Need You Now"
Keith Urban's "Only You Can Love Me This Way"
Bryan Adams' "Please Forgive Me"
Garth Brooks' "To Make You Feel My Love" (Adele is fabulous, but NOTHING beats this version)
Christina Aguilera's "You Lost Me"

For those interested, the phone sex outtake from Chapter 28 is available through @fandomgivesback. You can go HERE to get info on how to donate and get a compilation of o/s, poems, and outtakes from amazing authors. It benefits autism awareness, so I encourage you to donate even if you don't want the compilation.

I'll also be contributing an Edward/Bella o/s for @Fandom4Tsunami. I call him Grungeward cuz the story has to do with Nirvana, specifically Kurt. You can go HERE to find out how to donate and receive your compilation.

As I mentioned in the chapter's A/N, there are only 2 chapters left in C, CD. With that being said, there will be an alternate ending and 2 epilogues that are completely different from one another. I hope you guys can stick around long enough to see it all the way through.

Thank you for everything. <3

Con Amor Siempre,

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Chapter 29 Teaser!

Holy crow, it's been forever. Sorry about that. For those that don't follow me on Twitter, I'll explain why it's taken me so long to get this chapter up. In the meantime, here's a teaser for Chapter 29:

I started looking for my phone, and, when I couldn’t find it, I got on my hands and knees to check under the bed. I found it alright. I found it underneath the bed... where I had thrown all of the pictures I had of Jackson and I.

As I grabbed my phone, I accidentally grabbed a picture, as well. Before I knew what I was doing, I was staring at it. It was from when the band was at my parents’ house in Albuquerque, and he had just given me my autographed copy of “The Village” soundtrack. I was on him like white on rice, my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. I was smiling and he was smiling and Benny who was off to the side in the background was smiling. We were all smiling. We were so happy.

And that was what sent me over the edge.

The chapter will update on Saturday. Extra Goodies post tomorrow. <3

Con Amor Siempre,

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Chapter 28 Phone Sex Outtake Teaser For FGB!

Since it's been forever and a day since I've posted anything for C, CD, I thought I'd give you a little teaser for the phone sex outtake that's going to be submitted for Fandom Gives Back.

I froze for a second, realizing that I was having phone sex and my boyfriend had just asked me to finger myself. And then I told myself I was being a gigantic jackass for worrying about something so stupid and to shut the fuck up. Because I love him. And I was horny. And so was he.

To donate to FGB and receive this outtake, along with hundreds of authors, go HERE.

I'll see you guys next weekend for a Chapter 29 update. I hope. :)

Con Amor Siempre,