Sunday, June 20, 2010

Chapter 19 Follow Up

Ok, so the first half of this post is going to be angsty. It deals with certain reviews and PMs I've received in the past few days. If it upsets you or the angstiness is not directed at you, I apologize now.

Apparently, Chapter 19 is not what people were expecting...

Problem #1: This chapter was "Filler." First of all, the definition of "Filler," in regards to a fic, is content that does nothing to forward the plot of the story. While I confess that the chapters of late have had a rather high word count, one thing I strive to do is to make sure that everything I include has a purpose. It's not about the word count for me. It's about giving information that adds to the plot or helps move it along. This chapter dealt with a 3 week separation. The separation is meant to foreshadow future chapters when Jackris isn't able to physically be together because of Jackson's schedule and Iris' life outside of Vancouver. They can't stay in their little bubble forever and the point of including the separation was to show that. Their lives outside of themselves don't just stop because they're in a relationship now.

Problem #2: There were no lemons in this chapter. I didn't realize that giving half a lemon in Chapter 18, something to show the progression of the relationship and not just for the sake of having one, meant that there would be full-blown sex from that moment on. For those of you who expected Jackris to drop trou and bump uglies right away, you obviously are missing the point of this story. Yes, as I have said before, there will be lemons. HOWEVER, they'll be included in a realistic nature. I don't know how many times I've expressed my need for this story to be as realistic as possible. Having Iris, a virgin and an insecure being, simply spread em wide isn't realistic. I know that there are plenty of vaginas out there that would have no problem getting their freak on with Jackson should the opportunity present itself. If you believe that Iris is one of those people, then I'm not doing my job as a writer. If you want stories that have nothing BUT lemons, lemme know and I'll be happy to point you in the right direction.

Problem #3: The chapter wasn't long enough. O_O This chapter was over 15,000 words long! I don't know how much longer I can get these puppies. I don't ever strive to hit a specific word count. The chapters have just started ending up this long. But to say that a 15,000 word chapter isn't long enough really hurts my feelings. I do my very best to get the information needed for you, the reader, to understand what is going through Iris' head. Unless you want her thoughts on life while she's peeing, I don't know how I can make these chapters longer.

Something else I noticed that made me do a little soul-searching is that the reads and the reviews for this chapter are down. I'm talking really down. When I say down, I mean that there was a 75% drop in reads and a 60% drop in reviews (I'm a math nerd in case you can't tell). I'm not an egotistical wench about this story by any means. My Skype Besties are constantly having to talk me down from a ledge cuz I have serious issues with every aspect of this story. The reason I worry about these numbers is because it leads me to believe that people don't want to read it anymore. If this is true, lemme know. I'll do my best to wrap up the story in 3-5 chapters. It'll be difficult and a lot of the important aspects of the Jackris relationship will be left out. For those that are so desperate for lemons, you won't get them with the shorter version. Now, the only people who know how long C, CD will be are myself and the Skype Besties. I'll just say that there's a lot to say for this couple. I'd really like to be able to let you guys in on that. Maybe I'm taking this too personally but this story IS personal to me.

Now that I've gotten that off my chest, here's some other not so angsty stuff I wanted to discuss...

The title of this chapter was "If Only You Knew." If there are any Mariah fans reading this story, you know that this was not an actual song by the Diva herself. Instead, I took her tribute to Patti Labelle and worked it to my advantage. It's not cheating! :P

On the right hand side of the blog, I added a gadget called "Musical Chapter Titles." As I've said before, all of the chapters for C, CD except for "Closer" and "Cold Desert" are Mariah Carey song titles. When you click on a chapter title, it'll take you to a YouTube video for that song. Just thought I'd keep the Mariah Carey realness flowing. *gangsta face*

A while back, I mentioned that I had signed up for Fandom Gives Back offering an auction and a buy. Since then, I've withdrawn my name. I hated having to do it, but, at the time, I was unbelievably wrapped up with work and my move back home to New York. I didn't want to commit to something I couldn't give my full attention to even though it's for a great cause. It wouldn't be fair to the winners or to the organization. Even though I'm no longer working, I still have Comic Con in July, something I've been attached to for almost a year, and the move in August. I still hope that you ladies will check out what some of the best authors I know have to offer. The site is currently down but I'll tweet out the info once it's available.

For those of you who aren't following me on Twitter, you may wanna start now. I was recently asked by miss @Kitty_Cullen to be a part of a group of ladies to run the @Jaspers_Darlins newly created Facebook page and I accepted. Since I'm out of a job right now, I'm constantly on that puppy. I've added videos of 100 Monkeys doing improv songs, photo albums, and update on anything Jackson related with links. It's a great way to get your Jackson and Jasper information all in one place. With Jackson in the middle of promoting The Last Airbender and Eclipse, it's being updated ALL the time. Please stop by HERE to check out all the goodies. Please leave comments, wall posts, and anything else you like. There's a Discussion Board, as well!

The Reality Rebellion Awards are now open and taking nominations! This is a BIG deal for RPFs. This award focuses solely on RPFs and honors stories and authors that the fandom shuns. Please please PLEASE click HERE to go the site. It's wise to read the rules and regulations before you start nomming away. Let the lesser known and respected writers and their fics know that you appreciate what they do.

So, that's it for now. Please comment, tweet, or DM me with your thoughts as to what you would like me to do with this story. I'm very serious about this matter.

Con Amor Siempre,

Just some of my fave pics from the junket so far.

And just one of the reasons why I know God exists.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

ANOTHER Chapter 19 Teaser!

So, this will be the last teaser I post for this chapter. Hopefully, the next thing you'll get from me is the actual chapter. So, read on for that teaser, Jacksonites!

“Don’t hold back any answers cuz we all know that you can’t lie anyways,” she began.

“Roger that, Mistress Of Pain.”

I gave her an over exaggerated salute and went back to mirroring her position. We both had our serious game faces on, but I didn’t know how long I would last without bursting into a fit of hysterical cackles.

“Ok," she began. "Have you fucked him?”


“Blown him?”


“Has he eaten you out?”


“Has he fingered you?”


Her eyebrows quickly shot up before she regained her serious face and continued.

“Did you cum?”


I heard Jason groan from behind me. Though we were all used to Sal and her ability to just say whatever the fuck was on her mind, I had never been the victim of one of her sex interrogations. It must’ve been weird for them to hear about me getting dirty, the cloak of sweet and innocent virgin no longer appropriate.

“Have you touched his dick?”


“Has he felt the twins?”


“Has he even seen you topless?”


“Do you love him?”


I slowly sat back up into my kiddie chair and stared at her, trying to remember how to breathe. I saw her smirk and then lick her lips and I knew I was fucked. She detected hesitation and she was about to fucking pounce on my ass.

Um, so I haven't finished the chapter yet. Yes, I know I'm lamesauce. I've been distracted by RL, #NoTouchy, "My Vampire Douchebag," and shiny blue jackets. I still don't know when I'll get it done and posted, but, as always, I'll tweet that out.

For those of you who haven't seen my incessant tweeting on the subject, The Reality Rebellion Awards will be accepting nominations beginning June 14th. Make sure you follow @RPF_Awards for updates. Check out the categories HERE. Click HERE to check out the entire blog. There are some amazing writers and fics out there that should be recognized. Please don't let RPFs continue to be the dirrty little secret of the fic world.

Con Amore Siempre,

Maybe if Waldo had Jackson's jacket, we wouldn't always be looking for him. :P

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Chapter 19 Teaser!

I didn't even know I was going to post a teaser today but decided to throw something out there. Here ya go:

“I was starting to worry a little.”

“About what?”

“The fact that you were so cheery. I almost believed that you weren’t affected by the whole thing. It made me wonder.”

“Go on…”

“I thought that you didn’t care.”

I knew he was going to continue but stopped when the look on my face, the horrified one that I make when a “Oh shit! I just accidentally walked in on my little brother peeing!” moment happens, made its way to the surface.

“I know I’m gonna miss you.”

“I can’t believe you really thought that. You should’ve known better,” I said, turning my guilt into a scold. “You know I’m going to miss you. I guess I just didn’t want you to know.”

“Know what?”

“That I’m pretty fuckin attached to you,” I blushed. “I mean, it’s only been a couple of months, right? I didn’t want you to feel suffocated or crazed having to deal with my selfish idea of locking you in the house so you couldn’t leave. Plus, I don’t want you to think that I’m not supportive. This is what you wanna do and you shouldn’t have to worry about how all the traveling and the craziness is affecting me.”

Now, I'm not even CLOSE to having this chapter complete. You probably won't get another teaser or post for a bit. I do have today off so I'm working on getting as much of it done as I can. I'm shooting for an official post to go up next week but work just got seriously complicated and shitty so it might take longer than that.

Wanna hear some amazingness? An award for RPF stories ONLY has been created! @tellme_thetruth, @Sweet_D2, and @Christie_U are manning the tables for this amazing event. As you know, cuz I rant and rave about it all the time, RPF writers and stories are pretty much shunned in the fic world. Well, there's now an award that honors them. Click HERE to check out the award rules, categories, and to follow these ladies on Twitter for more info. Voting begins June 14th.

Con Amor Siempre,