Friday, December 24, 2010

Chapter 25, Part One Follow Up

Merry Christmas Eve AKA Merry Jesus was actually born in the Spring but I'll take this day anyway! This won't be a long post since I don't really have much to say. Lucky for you, guys. :P

So, I struggled with the idea of splitting this chapter for several reasons. The main one was that, with all of the events involved in the chapter, I wanted to seem like a lot and overwhelming, a pace that would reflect how Iris felt in LA. In the end, though, I decided to not torture you by giving you a 23K word chapter. Think of it as my Christmas gift to you! Non-torture. Merry Christmas. :)

The fight between Jackson and Iris about NewCon was written at the last minute which is probably why it seems so out of left field. LilRachelP reminded me that the band had attended NewCon, something that completely escaped my mind, and I went all ragey on myself. I turned that into a little argument between Jackris and it actually worked out well to prepare for future chapters. Go figure. Thanks, R!

I obvi don't know the Rathbones so I just based them off of what I think they're like. Nothing different from any of the other characters in the story.

I fought with the idea of glamming Iris up for the premiere. I decided that it would be a nice show of her friendship with Nikki, Ashley, and Kristen if they decided to help out with her dress and other premiere goodies.

Dinner table naughtiness was just for fun. I had that puppy in mind for over six months now. LOL! And this is the second version of that scene. The original had Iris jacking him off in the bathroom until he almost cums. She then blue balls him as punishment for trying to get her off in front of his parents. *shrug*

I ended Part One with the Monkeys show and the way I wrote it because I wanted to show how Iris feels about Jackson's life on stage (or I at least hope I was able to). Even though she's at the show, she's not really. She can't be seen with him, the band, or even Marty outside of the banana suit. Because Jackris has been in its bubble, she hasn't really seen what Monkeys fans are capable of at shows. It's strange and eye-opening for her. It's also a preview of things to come.

Part Two is 99.9% done. It includes the New Moon premiere, the afterparty, a serious talk, and Iris leaving LA. What I haven't decided is whether I'm going to ask the SuperBeta to validate it next week or the week after.

For those that don't know, I finally decided on what my contribution for @FansAgainstDV is going to be. Rather than do one or two entire chapters in Jackson's POV from C, CD, I've decided to do at least one scene from every chapter in his POV. Basically, it's gonna be a long ass outtake. Again, you can get this outtake and over 100 others by donating $10 to the cause. There's no bidding process so that $10 gets you all of the outtakes, not just mine. You can get more info on it HERE.

I know I said that this wasn't going to be long, but I'm a filthy liar and we all know I'm long-winded. With that said, I just wanna hug each and every one of you that are still reading this craptastic story. You don't have to and many of you have become friends of mine so I really appreciate the love. <3

Happy holidays!

Con Amor Siempere,

Monday, December 20, 2010

Chapter 25, Part One Teaser!

So, even though I didn't want to do it, I had to split the chapter into two parts. At this point, I'm not entirely done with it and it's at 21K words. Rather than make you suffer, I took the advice of my prereaders and split it. Therefore, you technically get two teasers for Chapter 25. Here's the first:

The next day while the band was at the studio doing whatever it was they did with Scott, I walked around the neighborhood and spent a few hours at the nearest Starbucks. I wanted to do all of the touristy stuff, but I didn’t know up from down so I wasn’t gonna try and navigate LA on my own. I had been back in the hotel room for maybe an hour when everyone, and I mean everyone, burst through the door, laughing and being loud. Jackson immediately came over and gave me this dramatic kiss, smiling like a loon when he pulled back.

“Good day?” I laughed.

He leaned down and gave me another kiss instead of answering, walking back to the rest of the Monkeys who were seated on the opposite bed. Kristina came over and patted my hand.

“They were like this when they picked me up. I’m surprised I’m not bald,” she joked, pulling on her hair to demonstrate.

I noticed Marty was with the boys and I immediately smiled.

“Marty! Where the hell have you been? I don’t get to see you much,” I said, going over to give him a hug.

“Phone calls, planning, talking to the ladies,” he smiled. “It never ends.”

I shook my head and sighed as the room erupted into laughter.

“Which reminds me,” Marty began. “Everyone needs to be packed and ready to go Thursday night. Our flights aren’t until noon on Friday, but I don’t wanna chance anything.”

All the boys nodded and agreed as I stood there, confused and wondering what the fuck was going on.

“Flight? You guys are going somewhere?” I asked.

“We’re playing NewCon on Saturday,” Jerad replied as if I was supposed to have already known.



Don’t wig out. It’s probably just a mistake.

“Um, you’re leaving for Tennessee? Why didn’t you tell me?” I asked, directing my question at Jackson.

“Dude, you didn’t tell her we weren’t going to be here?” Graupner asked.

Suddenly, everyone was dead quiet. Jackson couldn’t even respond for a bit as he looked at everywhere and everyone but me.

“You knew I had shows while you were here,” he finally answered.

“Yeah. Here. I didn’t think I was going to be left alone for days while you were on the other side of the country!”

So much for not wigging out.

I saw Jackson flinch a bit before I finally just closed my eyes and let out a big sigh, hoping to calm myself.

“We’ll leave you guys to talk about this,” I heard Kristina say.

Everyone was scrambling to get to the door as quickly as possible.

“No. You guys stay put. I need to... get away from here,” I said, grabbing my purse and giving Jackson a death glare before I walked out of the room.

The SuperBeta emailed me back this morning and confirmed that this chapter will post Thursday morning. :)

Tomorrow's the Extra Goodies post.

Con Amor Siempre,

P.S. Happy Birthday, J. :)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Chapter 24 Follow Up

Buenos dias! :)

So, the last chappy of Jackris in Vancouver... It's not my favorite chapter but I tend to think they all suck so it could've been worse, I guess. LOL

The talk between Iris and Jackson about what's going to happen once Vancouver is no more is something I definitely wanted to include. It's one of the first real indicators that things are changing for them. Each has thought about it a little but they haven't discussed it with each other and I think that's when it really hits home for both of them that they're time apart is closer than they think. Kristina and Molly's mentions are there for a reason. ;)

Iris babysitting Theo was something I wanted to add just because that kid is adorable as sin and I hoped it would add some humor to the chapter. By the way, "Finding Nemo" is actually the reason I no longer include fish in my diet. LOL

I hope the amount of Spanish used didn't throw anyone off or make it difficult to understand what was going on. With Iris going back to New Mexico and visiting family, it was necessary to include.

Homecoming/Reunion. Everything included in that scene actually happened to me when I went back for my 10 year (with the exception of Jackson, of course).

Jackson doing the dirty talk thing is a preview of how things may be for Jackris in the future. Even though they discussed everything up to the Albuquerque Monkeys show, nothing after that time was even mentioned. "Foreshadow" is the key word here.

The "We aren't angsty" discussion scene wasn't added until the last minute. I debated for a bit about whether I should throw that in there or not, but I ultimately decided to add it for a specific reason. While some relationships are very dramatic and full of emotional rollercoasters, I didn't want Jackris' to be that. Yes, there was some drama to start the relationship off and there may be some drama later on, but the focus of this fic is HOW these two people got together and what they do to make that work. Plus, as mentioned, neither Jackson nor Iris are really the type to make things difficult. He's laid back and she's a giant kid.

The idea of having a Thanksgiving dinner when it wasn't Thanksgiving was something I had in mind from way back when. Since Eclipse finished filming on Halloween of '09, I thought it would be cute to get everyone together before they left to have one giant final dinner. Dinners have always been a big thing in this fic because it was a way for the cast to have some sense of normal in their crazy, celebrity world.

Having Iris play the cello for Jackson was always in the cards. How she went about it, though, has changed a bit over time. In the end, I decided to have her do it at Thanksgiving dinner so that readers could see just how far Iris has really come. She voluntarily offered to say grace as well as orchestrate, no pun intended, the cello bit. As far as song choices go, I always had "Don't Make Me Wait" in mind. I thought about going with "The Gravel Road," but I knew that the instrument used HAD to be a cello. I also thought about going with "August's Rhapsody," but, to me, it would've seemed like she was showing off more than anything else. I wanted to keep it sweet and simple, going with a song that has cello features but doesn't become the star of the song.

Serious time: The word count for the chapters is going to start decreasing. It's a little difficult to explain why but just know that they won't be the 16K chapters that they have been. They could land anywhere between 5K and 10K at this point. Also, I've been making some decisions as to how to end C, CD. I mentioned in the last chapter's A/N that there would be roughly 6 or 7 chapters left, but I'm a little discouraged by some things, mainly the lack of reads and reviews lately. Now, I'm not saying that fic reviews are the world, but they're indicators. If nobody's reading or reviewing, it's difficult for an author to want to continue writing. What's the point? THIS is why I always encourage people to leave reviews for every story they read. As an author, I know how disheartening it is to put your everything into a story and only come out with 5 reviews for a chapter. I knew going into fic writing that RPFs were a shunned genre, but it made me happy to see that C, CD was doing kind of OK despite that. But to go from 20 reviews a chapter to 7 really hits hard. Like I said, though, I haven't made any real decisions as to the story's final days. I may just cut my original ending all together or keep it the way I had planned. *shrug*

Since there haven't been any comments left regarding the JPOV outtake for @FansAgainstDV and I doubt any will be left before the December deadline, I'll make the final decision as to what to include for it. I already submitted a o/s for FADV that has nothing to do with C, CD. I wanted to write something having to do with the topic of domestic violence so there will be a total of two submissions from me for the cause. The non-C, CD outtake is very dark, though. Misskikieg, FrootLoop311, and J preread it for me and had varied reactions to it. Some said it was difficult to read while others said it was necessary. Idk. If you purchase the entire collection, you can let me know what you think. :)

Alright, that's enough of my rambling for the day. I'm off to see "Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows" again as well as "Unstoppable." I have a thing for Chris Pine and his scruff but an even bigger thing for Rupert Grint as Ron Weasley. Seriously. The Grint has his own category titled "YUMMO!"

Con Amor Siempre,

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Chapter 24 Extra Goodies

Jackson's "Girlfriend" hair
Kristen's botched dinner
Chile verde
Finding Nemo
Toy Story
High school reunion dress
Paranormal Activity
Dinner out shirt
Folgers commercial
I Am Sam
This World Fair's “Don’t Make Me Wait”

Believe it or not, I haven't started any new fics. O_O I have, however, started betaing a new fic. It's called Coffee Shop Tango by @kaymjack. Please check it out and show her some love in the form of a review. :)

SuperBeta got back to me and the chapter WILL be posted Saturday morning. *nerves of terror*

Con Amor Siempre,

Reference pics:

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Chapter 24 Teaser!

Could it be? *gasp* Dun dun dun. That's right! A teaser for a new chapter and there wasn't a new leap year. *does the Macarena* Work has some great writing mojo. I hope they don't start giving me more to do than usual. LOL! So, here it is:

“You don’t really have to go to this thing. Reunions are shitty.”

“How would you know? You’re a baby,” I laughed.

“All high school reunion movies say they’re shitty.”

“You got a point there. But I wanna go back and be all nostialgy. I also wanna put it behind me.”

I sat down on the bed next to him, shoving my rolling suitcase out of the way.

“It’s not really a big deal now but it really sucked not having friends back then. Being ignored for four years wasn’t exactly fun.”

“You’re not ignored now,” he mumbled, taking my hand in his.

“That’s what I mean. I have you and Suzy and everyone else in my life now. I’m a college graduate and I have law school coming up soon. I’m not the same quiet person I was back then. I can put the bullshit of high school behind me.”

“And this Richard guy’s not gonna try anything funny, right?”

“I hope he does. I’m kinda hoping he fucks me doggy style in the middle of the barracks so everyone can know how crazy we are now.”

“You and your dirty mouth,” he said, effectively shutting me up with his own dirty mouth.

The SuperBeta hasn't confirmed whether she'll be able to validate and post Chapter 24 on Saturday for sure. Just in case she does, though, I thought I'd put the teaser out today to go with the usual blog-posting schedule.

Tomorrow, Extra Goodies and the musical chapter title. Hasta manana!

Con Amor Siempre,

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Chapter 23 Follow Up

Hi! *waves*

From the few reviews I've received, I see that the hot and shmexy times are an approved art form. I hope you know that those two lemons were in there for a reason and not just because. As you guys know, I don't write lemons just for the sake of writing lemons. Actually, they're quite weird to write. So, if you're expecting a lemon in every chapter from now on, you obvi haven't figured out that this fic isn't about that.

So, just like Chapter 22, the Fuck Me Playlist I included in this chapter's Extra Goodies didn't actually play in the chapter itself. But I like to make playlists and thought that maybe these'll inspire some of you to give the significant other some sweet, sweet lovin. LMAO

The five copies of every Mariah CD? Yeah. That's true. Don't judge me.

So, the premiere talk. It had to be had. I was never, EVER going to have Iris walk the red carpet. Come on. The girl hates the paparazzi and the invasion of privacy thing. Putting her on the carpet with Jackson would be just WAY too much for her to deal with and would go completely against what she believes. She knows that Jackson has to deal with it because it's a part of his job. Putting her out there, though, would throw her life into an even bigger tailspin, not to mention have a really big effect on Jackson's career. She's never been interested in the spotlight so there's no need to have her there with him. They each know what the truth is and that's good enough for her.

I absolutely totally wanted to have Peter and Bryce's kids in this chapter. They're adorable as sin and I thought it would be nice to have Iris interact with some new people in a different way.

By the way, the "New Moon" screening actually did happen while they were in Vancouver. The party thingy afterwards didn't, though. In reality, after the screening, the cast went to the Kings Of Leon concert. I needed to move some events around to fit the story, but I still wanted what actually happened to be a part of the plot. Reality and all that jazz...

I know it may have seemed random, but I wanted to show that Jackris is as much a normal couple as any other and that's why I included the little tidbit about Jackson being jealous over the dude that's going to the reunion with Iris. More on that situation in the next chapter. :)

Now, here's the deal with the Jackson POV I was talking about in the chapter's ending A/N. @Buhbeesgirl on Twitter has started Fandom Against Domestic Violence, @FansAgainstDV. It's pretty much like The Fandom Gives Back but is specifically geared toward victims of domestic violence. I, thankfully, have never been personally affected by this. I have, however, witnessed the aftermath of such a horrible incident. As many of you know, law school is in my future. What some of you may not know is that my goal is to end up in the DA's office as a prosecutor for the Sex Crimes division. Domestic violence sometimes falls into that category. To prepare, I've taken classes on the psychological aspect and sat in on interviews with victims. If you haven't had to deal with this, please consider yourself blessed. Anyway, I wanted to participate in this charity event. So, what I decided to do, is offer up a chapter of C, CD in Jackson's POV.

As far as what chapter it is, I'll leave that up to you. Because my entry is needed by January, I'll need everyone's answer by the first of December. Leave me a comment on this blog post about what chapter of C, CD you'd like me to go back and revisit then rewrite in Jackson's POV. Any chapter is up for grabs. The chapter with the most votes wins. Simple.

Click HERE to go the blog for more details on FADV. The cool thing, in my opinion, is that for only $10, you receive every contributing author's piece. There's no bidding for individual pieces. You can donate more, of course, but $10 gets you the whole shebang. Pretty neat, huh?

Ok, so I'm done with that. As I said before in my opening A/N, I'm writing a lot at work. I'm almost done with Chapter 24 so I'll try to get that up within the next two weeks, but don't hold me to that. LOL! Also, in case you didn't get one of the gazillion tweets about it, I started a Twitter account solely for the Jackson FB page I run for the Darlins. If you want all of the info on our boy and 100 Monkeys, make sure you follow @JRathboneFB. :D

Con Amor Siempre,

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Chapter 23 Teaser!

I wish I could've given two teasers for this chappy since I took so long but I honestly didn't have more than 2K words written until 3 days ago. Lo siento :(

“Honey, I’m home!” Jackson yelled out, causing me to giggle.

“How was work today, dear?” I retorted, feeling totally awesome using my Donna Reed voice.

“It was OK.”

I heard him put something down in the living room area and his footsteps shuffle.

“Where are you?”

“I’m in here. What are you doing back so early?”

“David said we got everything we needed to get and let us go since he knew the screening and party were tonight.”


“Marco!” he yelled out.

“Polo,” I giggled back.

“What are you doing down there?” he said, his voice sounding much closer so I knew he was in the room.

“Looking,” I began as I stood up, “for this!” I smiled, holding the monkey cap up.

I stood there waiting for him to say something but he never did. He stared. He stared as if he had never seen me before and was trying to figure out why some chick he had never met was standing in her underwear, freakishly happy that she had found one half of a pen.

“Babe, you OK?”

“What are you wearing?” he asked, his eyes roaming over me.

“Oh. I dropped half of my lunch on my clothes. You know me. I’m a messy eater,” I chuckled as I looked down at my boy shorts and tank top.

I was walking past him to the closet so I could put some clothes on when he grabbed me really hard by the elbow and pulled me back to him. He walked me backward until my back hit the wall. His body had mine pinned against it and all I could do was drop the pen I had in my hand. He leaned his left arm up against the wall as he stared directly into my eyes.

“Is this what you’ve been wearing all day?” he husked.

“Y-yeah. I was just gonna put some clothes on. You looked as – “

I didn’t get a chance to finish my explanation cuz he shoved his tongue in my mouth. And, really, who am I to complain about that?

As with the usual posting schedule, the Extra Goodies will be posted tomorrow, the chappy on Sunday, and the Follow Up post on Monday. PLEASE make sure you check out the Follow Up post so you can find out how to get an outtake from C, CD of Jackson's POV.

I'll see you guys tomorrow. :)

Con Amor Siempre,

Friday, October 8, 2010

Chapter 22 Follow Up

First, thank you to anyone and everyone who read this chapter. And a bigger thanks to those who didn't throw up all over themselves. You have strong stomachs, my friends. o.O

So, the playlist I listed in the Extra Goodies post wasn't in the actual chapter, I know. But I did think that you ladies might wanna use some of the songs on there for your own, uh, use. They range from sweet and romantic to sensual and almost naughty. It's not full on naughty and there's a reason for that. Ahem. Besides, I like to think that, had Quantum Leap not been playing in the background, maybe some of these songs would've popped up or something. *snort*

I wigged while writing this chapter. Seriously wigged. I've never written a lemon before this, let alone a cherry-popper. I didn't want it to be all explosions in the sky and earth-moving cuz most first times aren't that way. They're usually awkward and filled with "What the fuck was that?" moments. Even still, Jackson's no virgin so he would know that Iris needed warming up and to take things slow. It wasn't a fuck fest for those reasons. It wasn't about finally getting in her pants.

As I mentioned earlier, I kept this chapter solely to the smeksin because I felt it was a momentous enough occasion that it warranted its own chappy. I didn't want a prank or (more) silly banter to ruin something that was obviously important to the both of them. It would've been muddled and I didn't want the situation to be construed as just another passing "thing."

With that being said, Chapters 23 and 24 are going to go back to around the same length I had been posting before, between 13K and 16K words. Yes, 23 and 24 are the last two chapters with Jackris in Vancouver. The fic's not ending there, though. We still have a few chappys left to go. Believe me when I say that the 100 City Tour is going to keep things from being all fluffy bunnies. While I like to read angst, I don't like to write it for the simple fact that not all relationships have round the clock tragedies. But, like any other relationship, Jackris will have its moments of angst to deal with, especially with the tour.

I think that's about it for this chappy. I already started working on 23 but there are some things and some people that have made me take a step back from it for a bit. I'll try to open Word soon and see if I can't get that it finished. I'm sure misskikieg will start with the ass-kicking soon enough.

For those of you that review, lemme just say that you're a writer's dream. This chapter, especially, was really weighing on me and your reviews have helped me out immensely. Your words mean a lot and I appreciate them. <3

Con Amor Siempre,

Monday, October 4, 2010

Chapter 22 Teaser!

This chapter's posting schedule is a little off. Keep reading after the teaser for "Bliss," Chapter 22, and I'll let ya know why.

He slowly made his way to his right and used his tongue to trace around my nipple though he didn’t touch it. He did this a couple of times, almost making me snap from the lack of actual nipple touching.

“I swear to God, Jackson…” I panted.

Before I could go on, his tongue flicked my nipple before he finally took it in his mouth. He sucked on that puppy for a bit and then went back to using his tongue.

I didn’t even realize it, but my hands had moved from their position and ended up in his hair. Before I could beg or whimper or threaten him with his life to continue, he pulled back and playfully glared at me. He took my hands out of his hair and then placed them back above my head. He leaned down, making me think he was going to kiss me, and then moved his mouth directly next to my ear.

“I told you not to move them,” he whispered. “Don’t make me tell you again.”

As I tweeted earlier this week, I finished the chapter over a week ago and submitted it to the SuperBeta at Twilighted. At first she said she could post it on the 7th but then retreated and said she didn't know exactly what date she could have it up because she's on vacation. Because of this, I decided to to ahead and post the teaser today and the Extra Goodies post tomorrow. It's just a safe bet if I do it this way.

For those that missed the tweet, this chapter's going to be super duper short, roughly around 5K words. I figured that this "event" was important enough to have its own chappy. *snort*

Extra Goodies gets posted tomorrow!

Con Amor Siempre,

Friday, September 3, 2010

Chapter 21 Follow Up

Never in my life has the word "cock-blocker" been used to describe me so many times. *snort*

So, I hope the chappy was enjoyable or at least worth the wait. Once I actually got into writing it, I couldn't stop. It was a blast to write. I may or may not have snickered while writing the prank against Kellan. Oh! And kudos to you that told me you're going to try it. If you can, get it on video. :P

So, the random karaoke moment. I know some of you were like, "Whoa. Iris just went all 'American Idol.' What's that about?" I know it may have seemed random, but I had it in there for a specific reason. I wanted to show that, even though Iris is terrified with the whole stage fright thing, she feels that comfortable with the Monkeys to start singing and not even realize it. Jackson's personal and professional relationship with the other Monkeys is vitally important to this fic. I didn't want this to be solely about Jackson and Iris. The boys are a big part of Jackson's life which means they're going to be a part of Iris'. It's important for that group to be friends as much as it is for Iris to get along with the cast. This, of course, will come up later when the boys go on the 100 City Tour. Jerad's reaction with the back rub and the boys not saying anything about her singing show that they're aware of her insecurities and stage fright, but they know and respect enough to keep it on the DL. Plus, they're just good guys that way.

Now, the song choice for that little scene. I could've gone all mushy. I could've gone all happy go lucky. The reason I went with Mindy Smith is because she's not well-known. I wanted to show that Iris' music isn't just mainstream stuff. When I said she/I listen to everything, I meant it. Besides, it's a beautiful song. I love the simplicity of it, the guitar notes, the rock/country feel. While I love me some good Christina notes that go all over the place, it's also nice to have a singer who keeps it simple.

The semen prank. I've had that sucker in mind since the bathtub prank. I thought about placing it after Jackson's injury, but I didn't it want to be in retaliation to something that's serious. If it just came outta nowhere, even if it was just a response to something as teeny as Kellan wanting dessert, it'd be much more scurry. It could happen anytime, any place. *cue evil music*

I had some peeps ask me about Jerad knowing that Jackson was in all the love with Iris. If you remember back to the last chapter during the Saturday morning breakfast scene, one of the peeps who seemed to know what was going on was Jerad. Jackson mentioned that he realized it while he was away working and she went home to NYC. It'd make sense for Jerad to notice a change in Jackson during down time on the Girlfriend set. Just a little FYI. :)

There will be more between Iris and her mother. That situation just doesn't go away with one phone call. Question: Too much Spanish? OK amount of Spanish? More Spanish? Lemme know.

The phone call with Randee was needed. It was about time actually. Jackson's always stated he's tight with his family. Even though they're thousands of miles apart, it would be in poor taste to not have Iris and Jackson's mother at least speak. It's a good foundation for when they actually meet.

Jackson's Eclipse injury. I thought about making it funny. I thought about not including it at all (way back when). But I thought it'd be a nice kick in the tushy for Iris. Sure, Jackris has had their share of drama, but that's all about self-esteem and miscommunication. An injury is dramatic. The feeling that someone you love has been hurt is dramatic. Not knowing whether they're OK is dramatic. It's also a nice affirmation that Iris' feelings aren't simply about the lust. She loves him. She cares about him as a whole. It also serves as a reminder to Jackson that he's not alone anymore. He can laugh it up with the guys but he needs to remember that he's important to her and should be mindful of what she went through.

The sex talk with Suzy? Graphic, I know. I actually used the word "Hymen," for crying out loud. But that's just how Suzy and Iris roll. Iris has questions and Suzy has the answers. They don't pussyfoot around things.

I absolutely had to address the date issue. I try to stress the fact that, at the end of the day, Jackris is your normal, everyday couple. Unfortunately, though, no matter how normal they actually are, their relationship does have limitations. Iris hates the paps and wants nothing to do with them. She wouldn't subject herself or Jackson to that so they can simply go out and get something to eat. Movies are a no go, either. For Iris, this isn't a biggie. In fact, she hasn't really even thought about it. To her it's not about going out but just about being together. Jackson wants to do right by her and the relationship, though. We'll see where this takes them later. :P

The seks. Oh, dear God, the seks is coming people! Don't get your knickers in a twist (@misskikieg's been teaching me some fancy British speak). *snort* I was so not going to include it in 21, though. I gave you a cliffy cuz I needed a reason for you to come back and read 22. LOL! Anyway, it might be awkward, it might be steamy, it might make you go, "Huh?" I haven't decided yet. Either way, I won't pull a SMeyer and fade to black. *wink*

That's enough rambling from me for now. I hope you all enjoyed SBL as much as I did. While I did enjoy the, uh, insinuation and grinding of the hips during "Joygasm," I would've really liked to see Fro Of Death used. Several peeps in attendance told me that the crowd cheered the loudest for that one, but I guess Jerad's a perv. :P

Thanks for sticking with me this far, loves. I really appreciate it. <3

Con Amor Siempre,

Monday, August 30, 2010

ANOTHER Chapter 21 Teaser!

Did you hear that? I think that was the sound of Hell freezing over. Yep, I completed Chapter 21. So, as per the usual schedule, here's the official pre-chapter post teaser. :)

Tuesday morning started off as normal as every other day had. I was in the middle of watching Paula Dean add about a pound of butter to some dish that I didn’t even think needed butter in the first place when I got a text message.

Please don’t kill me! – Kellan

Before I could even reply, I got a phone call from Nikki.

“Hey. Are you going to clarify what Kellan’s text is about?” I laughed.

“Have you been on the internet at all today?” she asked, sounding slightly rushed.

“No. Why?”

“Stay off of it.”

“Any particular reason?” I asked, totally confused.

“Jackson was in an accident.”

For the three of you still reading C, CD, I'm sorry it took forever to get this chapter posted. I could blame it on the hospital stay or moving to NYC, but it was all pretty much just general laziness that kept me from opening up the doc. Surprise surprise, though. The days leading up to and the day of SBL, I couldn't stop writing. Word to the boys: I'll need you to hold an SBL concert every two weeks so I can get to crackin on this damn story. :P

So, the chapter turned out to be shorter than I thought. It's hovering around 13.5K right now, but I'm still editing so that'll probably change since I have a tendency to add rather than remove during the process.

Extra Goodies post tomorrow! :)

Con Amor Siempre,

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Chapter 21 Teaser!

I can't remember when it was that I posted Chapter 20. That's pretty bad, right? Well, seeing as how it's been a while and @BeckyInPhilly thinks it's awesome to cyberbully my ass, I thought I'd give you a teaser from something I wrote a few days ago when I couldn't sleep.

“Oh, come on!” I yelled.

Jackson settled his face in the crook of my neck and laughed.

“Oh, you think this is funny, do you?”

I shoved him off of me and went straight for the door. I swung it open and came face-to-face with a cheesy-grinned Graupner. Normally, I’d do anything for the dude, but he’d just interrupted an awesome moment.

It took half a second before he got a hold of the look on my face and then his eyes widened when Jackson’s laughter rang out from behind me. He looked at me, looked down, and then covered his eyes with his hand before turning around and mumbling something.

“Oh, no. You will face my wrath, dude,” I said as I tried to remove his hand from his face.

He kept swatting at me, trying to get me to leave him alone, but I wasn’t having any of that. The beanpole may have been more than a foot taller than me but I had no problem jumping on his back and making him pay for interrupting whatever the hell was about to happen between Jackson and I if that’s what it took.

“Baby Girl?”

“You should start auditioning new band members, Jackson! This one’s gonna have difficulty playing anything with only one hand.”

I continued to fight with Gruapner until I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked back to see Jackson chuckling at me.

“What the hell is so funny?” I huffed.

He pulled me back into the room and closed the door slightly as the rest of the Monkeys had gathered around the door.

“I think he’s more worried about the fact that you don’t have any pants on than he is about your wrath.”

I looked down at myself, looked up at Jackson with what I’m sure was a sheer look of panic on my face, and then heard the rest of the Monkeys burst out into laughter from the hallway.


I have about 5K words written and still have a shitload of plot to cover so it's going to be another lengthy chapter. That being said, I have no idea when I'll finish it. Between the FB page, moving, and being utterly lazy, my thoughts are elsewhere despite wanting to get this puppy out and posted. More than likely, you'll get another teaser before you get the chapter. As always, I'll tweet that shit out.

I hope this teeny teaser has helped bring the rage down, Becky! You and your recruits are just gonna have to chill the eff out. I'm not afraid to let J loose on you all. She's Mexican... and feisty. LMAO

Con Amor Siempre,

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Chapter 20 Follow Up

I have spent the past 24 hours laughing hysterically at the reviews and tweets you peeps have left for me. Someone threatened to go Kathy Bates in Misery on my ass if I took too long to update the next chapter, another wondered if Jackris will now get past "third base," while @BeckyInPhilly... Well, let's just say she's gone insane. LOL! <3

So, first thing's first. I feel like I have to apologize for the pacing of this chapter. I wrote 75% of this puppy six months ago. Since then, my writing style changed in addition to some of the events having changed. As most of you know, I don't necessarily write chapters consecutively. I have a tendency of writing specific passages as the inspiration hits me. Working with the content I wrote a long ass time ago was so much more difficult. There were certain things that HAD to stay in the chapter and others that had to be changed and I was trying to keep them in while making sure that the events lined up. I feel like the pacing of the chapter was a little off, so, if it was, I'm sorry about that. If you didn't notice anything, then I'll just shut up right now. :P

I need to say this first about the smexin in this chapter. No, Iris does not have amazing Pamela Anderson blowjob skills. Something that I don't think I conveyed very well was that Jackson's enthusiastic, uh, participation and vocal abilities were because the poor dude hadn't had any action below the waist in three months. Not to say he doesn't have any stamina, but I'm surprised the guy didn't blow his load quicker. Little Bone was neglected... *sigh* LMAO!

The song that Iris sings, "Superstar," was always going to be the one sung in this chapter. When J made me listen to it when it first came out, I was already working on C, CD and I knew it would be absolutely perfect. I did, however, think that one other song woulda been great in this chapter, too. Shania Twain's "When You Kiss Me" has always been a favorite of mine, but I felt it was a little too serious for the type of relationship Jackris has. I mean, it's beautiful and romantic and all, but Superstar is more fun and innocent, which I think represents how these two are with each other. So, this was Iris' way of saying "I love you" without actually saying it. It's much easier for her to express herself through music. No, she didn't realize that three of them had been in the room with her for most of the song. You think if she'd known, she woulda kept singing? You also woulda read about her having a panic attack.

Some people have actually started to complain that Jackson's too perfect in my story. Trust me when I say that he isn't. Jackris is in the honeymoon stage of the relationship so everything's all sunshine and rainbows and bunny rabbits. All of the angst has been on Iris because 1. She's dealing with serious insecurities, 2. She's got that grandmother, and 3. The story's from her POV. If this was written from Jackson's POV, I'm sure we'd know all about his inner angst. The other thing you have to remember is that Jackris is still in its Vancouver bubble. We haven't seen what they're like when they're apart for a LONG period of time...

I wanted to let you know now that it will be a while before I can get Chapter 21 up. I know, I know. It already takes me forever to update, but at least I'm telling you now in advance. One week from today, I fly out to California to meet up with some friends for a week long vakay at Comic Con. I've never been and the giant nerd that I am is on the verge of exploding from sheer joy. Also, I'll be at the Monkeys show on the 23rd with both cell phone camera and regular camera in hand. It'll be madness, I tell you. MADNESS! After that, it's the month of August and I'll be moving my ass back to New York. I don't know what date exactly, but I have to find an apartment all the way over there from all the way over here. Finding a place to live that isn't Suzy's couch and a new job will be my priority from this point on. I'll write what I can so that it's not even more delayed, but I'm def not promising to have anything to you soon. Sorry about that. :(

I had such a blast while watching Eclipse! The leg hitch/proposal KEELED me. I cried. You can ask Hope. Of course, the battle training/sequences with Jasper and his backstory had us all squirming in our seats. What'd I tell you about that squirrel wig in Chapter 8? *waggles eyebrows* I know a lot of people bitched and complained about The Last Airbender. Again, ask Hope how she had to keep me from getting into a fist fight with some asshole after the midnight screening about it. If you're not familiar with the TV series, the movie was amazing! If you are, then the movie was a let down. I'm a fan of the series so I know why people had issues with it. However, standing on its own, TLA was great. I have a feeling that the things people are bitching about are things that M Night will take care of in the second and third movies. The man's one of my top three directors for a reason so I know he'll amaze us all.

So, for now, I shall leave you. I'm going to take the next couple of days to answer reviews and then I'm catching up on a shitload of fics I'm behind on and ones that I've been dying to start. <3

Con Amor Siempre,

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Chapter 20 Extra Goodies

Dance Party Mix
Janet Jackson's "All Nite (Don't Stop)"
Britney Spears' "Circus"
Rihanna's "Don't Stop The Music"
Beyonce's "Freakum Dress"
Black Eyed Peas' "Hey Mama"
Outkast's "Hey Yeah!"
Pitbull's "I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho)"
Trey Songz's "Say Aah"
Lady Gaga's "Starstruck"
Bone Thugs N Harmony's "Take The Lead (Wanna Ride)"
Eve's "Tambourine"
Pitbull's "The Anthem"
The Veronicas' "Untouched"
Beyonce's "Upgrade U"
Nicole Scherzinger's "Whatever U Like"
Usher's "Yeah"
I have close to 400 songs on this playlist so I just picked the first few that came up while on shuffle. :)

Reggaeton Examples
Daddy Yankee's "Gasolina"
Notch's "Guaya Guaya"
Shakira's "La Tortura (Remix)"

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
Michelle Tanner's "You got it, dude"

Fuck You
Limp Bizkit's "Break Stuff"
Smashing Pumpkins' "Bullet With Butterfly Wings"
Linkin Park's "Crawling"
Korn's "Falling Away From Me"
Korn's "Freak On A Leash"
Smashing Pumpkins' "Fuck You (An Ode To No One)"
Metallica's "Fuel"
Evanescence's "Haunted"
Flyleaf's "I'm So Sick"
Eminem's "Kim"
Mudvayne's "Not Falling"
Linkin Park's "One Step Closer"
The Used's "Pretty Handsome Awkward"
Metallica's "Sad But True"
Blink 182's "Stay Together For The Kids"
Marilyn Manson's "Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)"
Avril Lavigne's "Unwanted"
Kittie's "What I Always Wanted"
Guns N Roses' "You Could Be Mine"

Paramore's "When It Rains"
Taylor Swift's "Superstar"
Kelly Clarkson's "I Want You"

Edward/Bella Fic Recommendations
Confessions Of A Nanny
Just Wait
My Ride Home

Real Person Fic Recommendations
Perfectly Known Stranger

Slash Fic Recommendations
Seven Minutes In Heaven

Crossover Fic Recommendations
Daniel Gale: Cumming To America

Chapter 20 Teaser!

So, this section I'm about to give you wasn't in the original draft of the chapter, but I added it at the last moment cuz I thought it was important for Iris' sanity.

“I take it you’re doing OK?” Kristen smirked before drinking her beer.

“I’m good.”

It got really quiet for a moment and then I heard Nikki chuckle.

“See? She’s got that look.”

“Who has what look?” I asked, scanning each of their faces for this supposed look.

“You,” Ashley laughed.

“I have a look?”

In my drunken state, I put my bottle down and then used both hands to feel my face. I don’t remember exactly what I was trying to accomplish by doing this, but it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. The girls burst out laughing.

“You’re smitten. You’re a smitten kitten,” Ashley smiled.

“Yes, Dr Seuss. I am a smitten kitten,” I replied as I rolled my eyes.

They continued to make cute little kissy noises and goofball faces at me for a while. Kristen and Nikki decided to go back in once they got it all the teasing outta their systems, Ashley staying outside with me. I asked her about how everything had gone for her during those three weeks we hadn’t seen each other and she gave me a quick overview.

As we were talking, I could hear the party going on inside. Out of nowhere, I heard Jackson let out a loud ass laugh and I couldn’t help but smile.

“Oh, you’ve got it bad,” Ashley said.

“Can you blame me?” I giggled.

“I guess not.”

Those three words hit me hard, making me realize that I didn’t know the truth, know anything, about what might or might not have gone on between her and Jackson. Just the possibility of her being with Jackson, I don't know, intimidated me. Naturally, I had always been curious, but it seemed to actually sink in more now that I loved him.

“Ash? Can I ask you a question?”

“Yeah,” she replied, her voice getting serious.

“Normally I don’t ask these sorts of things cuz you know my issues with people prying into your lives and how you guys don’t really have any privacy anymore, but it kind of involves me now.”

I took a deep breath and turned my body so I could face her.

“Have you slept with Jackson?”

As of right now, the chapter's looking to be around 15K words. I'm still editing which means this could change. I have a habit of adding more in certain spots and deleting others. But, as I mentioned before, the whole thing will go up on Monday morning thanks to the SuperBeta.

Extra Goodies gets posted tomorrow (Sunday)!

Please don't forget to go over and put in your nominations for the RPF Awards. Those ladies have done a great job with the contest and the website so please don't let their hard work be for nothing. So, go HERE to nom and follow @RPF_Awards on Twitter for updated info. Spread the word!

Con Amore Siempre,

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Chapter 19 Follow Up

Ok, so the first half of this post is going to be angsty. It deals with certain reviews and PMs I've received in the past few days. If it upsets you or the angstiness is not directed at you, I apologize now.

Apparently, Chapter 19 is not what people were expecting...

Problem #1: This chapter was "Filler." First of all, the definition of "Filler," in regards to a fic, is content that does nothing to forward the plot of the story. While I confess that the chapters of late have had a rather high word count, one thing I strive to do is to make sure that everything I include has a purpose. It's not about the word count for me. It's about giving information that adds to the plot or helps move it along. This chapter dealt with a 3 week separation. The separation is meant to foreshadow future chapters when Jackris isn't able to physically be together because of Jackson's schedule and Iris' life outside of Vancouver. They can't stay in their little bubble forever and the point of including the separation was to show that. Their lives outside of themselves don't just stop because they're in a relationship now.

Problem #2: There were no lemons in this chapter. I didn't realize that giving half a lemon in Chapter 18, something to show the progression of the relationship and not just for the sake of having one, meant that there would be full-blown sex from that moment on. For those of you who expected Jackris to drop trou and bump uglies right away, you obviously are missing the point of this story. Yes, as I have said before, there will be lemons. HOWEVER, they'll be included in a realistic nature. I don't know how many times I've expressed my need for this story to be as realistic as possible. Having Iris, a virgin and an insecure being, simply spread em wide isn't realistic. I know that there are plenty of vaginas out there that would have no problem getting their freak on with Jackson should the opportunity present itself. If you believe that Iris is one of those people, then I'm not doing my job as a writer. If you want stories that have nothing BUT lemons, lemme know and I'll be happy to point you in the right direction.

Problem #3: The chapter wasn't long enough. O_O This chapter was over 15,000 words long! I don't know how much longer I can get these puppies. I don't ever strive to hit a specific word count. The chapters have just started ending up this long. But to say that a 15,000 word chapter isn't long enough really hurts my feelings. I do my very best to get the information needed for you, the reader, to understand what is going through Iris' head. Unless you want her thoughts on life while she's peeing, I don't know how I can make these chapters longer.

Something else I noticed that made me do a little soul-searching is that the reads and the reviews for this chapter are down. I'm talking really down. When I say down, I mean that there was a 75% drop in reads and a 60% drop in reviews (I'm a math nerd in case you can't tell). I'm not an egotistical wench about this story by any means. My Skype Besties are constantly having to talk me down from a ledge cuz I have serious issues with every aspect of this story. The reason I worry about these numbers is because it leads me to believe that people don't want to read it anymore. If this is true, lemme know. I'll do my best to wrap up the story in 3-5 chapters. It'll be difficult and a lot of the important aspects of the Jackris relationship will be left out. For those that are so desperate for lemons, you won't get them with the shorter version. Now, the only people who know how long C, CD will be are myself and the Skype Besties. I'll just say that there's a lot to say for this couple. I'd really like to be able to let you guys in on that. Maybe I'm taking this too personally but this story IS personal to me.

Now that I've gotten that off my chest, here's some other not so angsty stuff I wanted to discuss...

The title of this chapter was "If Only You Knew." If there are any Mariah fans reading this story, you know that this was not an actual song by the Diva herself. Instead, I took her tribute to Patti Labelle and worked it to my advantage. It's not cheating! :P

On the right hand side of the blog, I added a gadget called "Musical Chapter Titles." As I've said before, all of the chapters for C, CD except for "Closer" and "Cold Desert" are Mariah Carey song titles. When you click on a chapter title, it'll take you to a YouTube video for that song. Just thought I'd keep the Mariah Carey realness flowing. *gangsta face*

A while back, I mentioned that I had signed up for Fandom Gives Back offering an auction and a buy. Since then, I've withdrawn my name. I hated having to do it, but, at the time, I was unbelievably wrapped up with work and my move back home to New York. I didn't want to commit to something I couldn't give my full attention to even though it's for a great cause. It wouldn't be fair to the winners or to the organization. Even though I'm no longer working, I still have Comic Con in July, something I've been attached to for almost a year, and the move in August. I still hope that you ladies will check out what some of the best authors I know have to offer. The site is currently down but I'll tweet out the info once it's available.

For those of you who aren't following me on Twitter, you may wanna start now. I was recently asked by miss @Kitty_Cullen to be a part of a group of ladies to run the @Jaspers_Darlins newly created Facebook page and I accepted. Since I'm out of a job right now, I'm constantly on that puppy. I've added videos of 100 Monkeys doing improv songs, photo albums, and update on anything Jackson related with links. It's a great way to get your Jackson and Jasper information all in one place. With Jackson in the middle of promoting The Last Airbender and Eclipse, it's being updated ALL the time. Please stop by HERE to check out all the goodies. Please leave comments, wall posts, and anything else you like. There's a Discussion Board, as well!

The Reality Rebellion Awards are now open and taking nominations! This is a BIG deal for RPFs. This award focuses solely on RPFs and honors stories and authors that the fandom shuns. Please please PLEASE click HERE to go the site. It's wise to read the rules and regulations before you start nomming away. Let the lesser known and respected writers and their fics know that you appreciate what they do.

So, that's it for now. Please comment, tweet, or DM me with your thoughts as to what you would like me to do with this story. I'm very serious about this matter.

Con Amor Siempre,

Just some of my fave pics from the junket so far.

And just one of the reasons why I know God exists.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

ANOTHER Chapter 19 Teaser!

So, this will be the last teaser I post for this chapter. Hopefully, the next thing you'll get from me is the actual chapter. So, read on for that teaser, Jacksonites!

“Don’t hold back any answers cuz we all know that you can’t lie anyways,” she began.

“Roger that, Mistress Of Pain.”

I gave her an over exaggerated salute and went back to mirroring her position. We both had our serious game faces on, but I didn’t know how long I would last without bursting into a fit of hysterical cackles.

“Ok," she began. "Have you fucked him?”


“Blown him?”


“Has he eaten you out?”


“Has he fingered you?”


Her eyebrows quickly shot up before she regained her serious face and continued.

“Did you cum?”


I heard Jason groan from behind me. Though we were all used to Sal and her ability to just say whatever the fuck was on her mind, I had never been the victim of one of her sex interrogations. It must’ve been weird for them to hear about me getting dirty, the cloak of sweet and innocent virgin no longer appropriate.

“Have you touched his dick?”


“Has he felt the twins?”


“Has he even seen you topless?”


“Do you love him?”


I slowly sat back up into my kiddie chair and stared at her, trying to remember how to breathe. I saw her smirk and then lick her lips and I knew I was fucked. She detected hesitation and she was about to fucking pounce on my ass.

Um, so I haven't finished the chapter yet. Yes, I know I'm lamesauce. I've been distracted by RL, #NoTouchy, "My Vampire Douchebag," and shiny blue jackets. I still don't know when I'll get it done and posted, but, as always, I'll tweet that out.

For those of you who haven't seen my incessant tweeting on the subject, The Reality Rebellion Awards will be accepting nominations beginning June 14th. Make sure you follow @RPF_Awards for updates. Check out the categories HERE. Click HERE to check out the entire blog. There are some amazing writers and fics out there that should be recognized. Please don't let RPFs continue to be the dirrty little secret of the fic world.

Con Amore Siempre,

Maybe if Waldo had Jackson's jacket, we wouldn't always be looking for him. :P

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Chapter 19 Teaser!

I didn't even know I was going to post a teaser today but decided to throw something out there. Here ya go:

“I was starting to worry a little.”

“About what?”

“The fact that you were so cheery. I almost believed that you weren’t affected by the whole thing. It made me wonder.”

“Go on…”

“I thought that you didn’t care.”

I knew he was going to continue but stopped when the look on my face, the horrified one that I make when a “Oh shit! I just accidentally walked in on my little brother peeing!” moment happens, made its way to the surface.

“I know I’m gonna miss you.”

“I can’t believe you really thought that. You should’ve known better,” I said, turning my guilt into a scold. “You know I’m going to miss you. I guess I just didn’t want you to know.”

“Know what?”

“That I’m pretty fuckin attached to you,” I blushed. “I mean, it’s only been a couple of months, right? I didn’t want you to feel suffocated or crazed having to deal with my selfish idea of locking you in the house so you couldn’t leave. Plus, I don’t want you to think that I’m not supportive. This is what you wanna do and you shouldn’t have to worry about how all the traveling and the craziness is affecting me.”

Now, I'm not even CLOSE to having this chapter complete. You probably won't get another teaser or post for a bit. I do have today off so I'm working on getting as much of it done as I can. I'm shooting for an official post to go up next week but work just got seriously complicated and shitty so it might take longer than that.

Wanna hear some amazingness? An award for RPF stories ONLY has been created! @tellme_thetruth, @Sweet_D2, and @Christie_U are manning the tables for this amazing event. As you know, cuz I rant and rave about it all the time, RPF writers and stories are pretty much shunned in the fic world. Well, there's now an award that honors them. Click HERE to check out the award rules, categories, and to follow these ladies on Twitter for more info. Voting begins June 14th.

Con Amor Siempre,

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Chapter 18 Follow Up

Happy Tuesday, Jacksonite hoors!

First, I'm a little sad that this is the first Tuesday that I won't tweet "Happy what the HELL is going on on LOST?!" It makes me for a sad monkey. If I had my way, that show would've never ended.

Second, for those of you who read C, CD on Twilighted, I'm sorry about the fake-out. I have no idea why it was posted Sunday night when it was supposed to go up on Monday morning. I knew that with the LOST finale I wouldn't have been ready with all the edits and shit to post it Sunday night. I really have no idea what happened there. Lo siento!

I take it you guys liked the lemon wedges in 18? It was definitely NOT time to bring out a full lemon. Time-wise, Jackris has only known each for 2 months, and, at the end of 18, had only had the official label thing going for 2 weeks. I'm not saying that there won't be full lemons, it's just not time for it to happen. Like fic-Iris said, "Cock is serious business." As much as she may want to get her freak on, she knows that getting down and dirty is a serious situation and she won't enter it lightly.

Now, the lemon wedges were there for more than the obvious reason. New relationships are fun and scary and involve the inability to keep your hands off of one another. I wanted them to have that normalcy. It's not about the fact that Jackson's famous and that Iris is a regular person. It's that they're two people in a relationship. Simple as that. They're trying to figure out how to go about things with all the mushy feelings and the want to bump uglies.

I hope I didn't offend anybody with the pot situation. It's not my intention to defame any of the actors. In my mind, they're regular people who do regular things. Pot is a regular thing (whether you believe in its legality or not). Most of us have seen the pic of Kristen smoking up on the porch steps. I have more than a few reasons to believe that Jackson does it, too. As I said, I don't know whether Rob and Nikki do it, but it doesn't phase me either way. Smoking pot doesn't make you a bad person, but I still hope the situation didn't offend anybody. My apologies to them if I'm wrong with my assumption.

I've already started on Chapter 19. I have maybe 3K written but I don't know how long it'll be. To be honest, I don't know if I'll continue writing these long ass chapters. I never intend for them to end up as long as they are.

Much love to my Skype Besties for being a bunch of hoors. <3s you.

Con Amor Siempre,

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Chapter 18 Extra Goodies

Mariah Carey's "Obsessed"
The Hangover
Mike Tyson's "In The Air Tonight"
Phil Collins' "In The Air Tonight"
Christina Aguilera's "Candyman"
Suzy's "My eyes!" reaction (0:28-0:31)
Eva Cassidy's "Time After Time"
Vegetarian chili con carne

Forrest Gump playlist
The Doors' "Break On Through (To The Other Side)"
The Mamas And The Papas' "California Dreamin"
Creedence Clearwater Revival's "Fortunate Son"
Fleetwood Mac's "Go Your Own Way"
Simon And Garfunkel's "Mrs Robinson"
Lynyrd Skynyrd's "Sweet Home Alabama"
The Byrds' "Turn Turn Turn (To Everything There Is A Season)"

Non-Headbanging Nickel Creek playlist
Doubting Thomas
Reasons Why
Seven Wonders
Tomorrow Is A Long Time
When You Come Back Down

Edward/Bella Fic Recommendations
How To Save A Life
Midnight Son Of A Biotch
Son Of A Preacher Man

Real Person Fic Recommendations
Gently Go I
To Know Love

Just for shits and giggles, here's the pic of my 5 year old self mentioned in the chappy.

ANOTHER Chapter 18 Teaser!

See? I keep my promises. I said there would be two teasers, and here's the second one:

“So, you’re not angry with me or at the world or anything?”

“Why would I be mad at you?” he asked, turning his head to face me.

“I don’t know. That’s why I’m asking.”

He leaned up and kissed me.

“If I was mad at you, I wouldn’t have asked you over to calm me down.”

“Maybe you were inviting me over to kick my ass,” I laughed.

“Head, woman. Make my day better,” he chuckled, placing my hands in his hair.

“Ay ay, Captain Cutie,” I giggled.

I continued the massage for a bit and wondered if this was the time and place to have the sex talk with him. He wasn’t in the best of moods but he was apparently feeling better. Plus, it was something that needed to be talked about now that I had a key to his room. That act alone just screamed, “We’re gonna get busy sooner rather than later.” I just didn’t know if that’s what he really meant or necessarily expected.

“I hate to break up this moment of peace and reflection, but I was hoping to talk to you about something.”

“Shoot,” he mumbled.


The word just kinda hung in the air for a bit before Jackson suddenly turned his entire body and looked up at me. The fucker was smirking.

I have received word from the SuperBeta that the chapter will be posted on Monday morning. As usual, I'll tweet the updates.

I'm in the middle of editing. I'm an editing MoFo right now and it's driving me nuts cuz this chappy's at/around 14K. Yep, I broke my own record. Is it just me or am I completely long-winded? :P

Con Amor Siempre,

Monday, May 17, 2010

Chapter 18 Teaser!

As promised, here is the first of the two teasers for Chapter 18. Now, when reading the following, remember that the chapter's title is "Touch My Body." *giggle*

“I’ll share my grapes with you but only cuz you’re gorgeous and I’m convinced this song was written about you and cuz I like you a lot,” I giggled.

I released the death grip I had on the bag and handed it to Jackson. He took out a couple and popped them in his mouth. He handed the bag back to me and I ate a couple, continuing to hum and dance to the music playing over the speakers.

“I love uvas,” I sighed.

“What are they called?”


“Wait. Say it slowly.”

U-vas,” I said.

I noticed that his eyes were no longer on the bag of grapes but on my face, though he wasn’t looking me in the eyes. It took him licking his lips for me to realize he was staring at my mouth. I tried not to smile but couldn’t help it and ended up clearing my throat to get his attention. He placed his hands on either side of me, trapping me where I was sitting on the island, and leaned forward, finally moving his eyes back up to mine.

Uvas,” I smirked.

And then Hottie McGreenEyes attacked my mouth.

I'm still writing, and, so far, I still have two major scenes to get down. I have no idea what day the chapter will go up, but I'll tweet that out the moment I have a clue. Thank you all for not killing me! <3

Con Amor Siempre,

Chapter 18 Update

Ok, so I don't know if you guys are going to tar and feather me for this. I'm actually kinda nervous and scared to say what I'm about to say. Jeez, I never realized how much you hoors rule me.

Alright, well... As much as I want Chapter 18 to go up this week, it doesn't look like it's gonnna happen. More than likely, it'll go up early next week. For the past few days, I've been rushing and typing and actually not getting any sleep in an effort to get it posted. Thing is that I absolutely HATE writing under pressure. And, to be honest, I have so much shit to write for this chapter, I probably wouldn't get it completed in time for a Wednesday post, which is what I was originally going for.

Since some of you are hardcore about this story, I'll give you some goodies while you wait. In case you missed it, the title of this chapter is "Touch My Body." Take what you want from that. LOL! Also, instead of just giving you the usual one teaser per chapter thing I always do, I'll give you guys TWO teasers. I also have a little something else I'm working on for this chapter as part of the Extra Goodies post. It's nothing big but it'll go well with a particular scene and it'll make all you Jacksonites have knicker explosions. As far as word count goes, I'm not even halways done and I'm currently 6K words. I don't know if I'll break my 13K word count record, but, with the way things are going, I just might. Hope that helps a bit with the wait. :P

So, with that said, please don't kill me. I know that there are some authors out there that loathe getting PMs, emails, and tweets asking for an update, but I adore them. It lets me know that you guys really do like mah little story. You have no idea how much that makes me giggle. Thank you, as always, for being fuckawesome readers and friends. <3

Con Amor Siempre,

P.S. I may or may not have added the following pics in an effort to keep you guys from gutting me. o.O

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Chapter 17 Follow Up

You know what I love? Getting emails and reviews from peeps telling me that they read my story at work or with their family nearby cuz the gasps and "Oh, my God" comments make people look at them funny. Just sayin...

Yay! Jackris is officially a couple. Neato, huh? And it only took 17 chapters to get there. LOL! It's about damn time, if you ask me.

So, I know the hotel scene was muy dramatic. It had been part of the outline since Day 1 so I knew it was going to happen. But I think that, because, I wrote it in the aftermath of FBW, it came out a lot angrier than I originally intended. I hope that the final result was OK with you guys.

If I'm not mistaken, I believe it was SweetSunnyRose who reviewed quite a few chapters back and was wondering if Jackson had given Iris any indication as to what he thought of her physically. I purposely left that out until this chapter. You, as the reader, didn't see it which meant that Iris didn't hear it. I wanted that declaration to Iris to be a punch in the gut. When you spend your life with the knowledge that not even your family members think you're attractive, it's difficult for you to comprehend that someone, anyone thinks you are. It's near impossible to accept when it's someone you have strong feelings for, especially when that someone is as gorgeous as Jackson.

So, now begins the craziness that is a relationship. We're going to learn a lot more about Iris' past regarding boyfriends and Jackson's way with the ladies and how both are going to be obstacles for them. We've also got time apart. Mind you, the time apart isn't going to be long, but long enough for it to have an impact. We've got Comic Con 2009, "Girlfriend" shoot, TCAs amongst other things. They won't all be in the next chapter, but they'll still make their way in there.

So, now that the girlfriend status has been established, does this mean there will be lemons? The answer is "Yes." I don't feel like I'm giving anything away by telling you that, because I kinda set it up already with the ass-grabbing, the whore-moaning, and the virgin declaration. Does it happen immediately? Come on... This is me. LOL! It took 17 chapters to get them to use labels, for crying out loud. Jumping into bed isn't an instantaneous thing for someone like Iris.

So, the final voting round for the Faithful Shipper awards went up last night. C, CD did not make the cut. I'm not surprised, though. The usual suspects made the cut (something I have a strong opinion about but won't mention here). Do your civic duty, as J would say, and click HERE to vote.

I don't know when exactly I'll have 18 up for you. I got hit with some RL crap last night and work is starting to get on my last good nerve. I'll probably start writing in a few days. I kinda just wanna take some time and read other fics.

Before I go, lemme just give some shout-outs. @kitty_cullen: You were the first person to rec me and I adore you for it. Thank you for saying what you did and letting me know that I'm doing an OK job. @tellme_thetruth: L, I don't even know what to say. To be rec'd by you, an author I admire and adore, is like nothing else. I'm so grateful for what you said about C, CD. Plus, I can't wait to read your two new stories. I'm sure, just as VC was, it will be nothing short of amazing. TheFakeDean: You, sir, are my favorite pussy. Hands down! Thank you for using your celebrity status and pimping out this fic cuz your Daddy's in it. Just meow to the boys that if they can get their butts back to Albuquerque, they'll be fed and you shall have a whole mess of tuna to eat. Bring Gus, too! Mira: I adore you. Thank you for helping me with the research aspect of this story. And thank you for making me write that night I was drunk. I can't wait to use it! <3 Kirsten: Oh, woman, what the hell am I gonna do with you? First, back off mah man! And stop saying "Crotch shot." It makes me think dirrty things. And believe it or not, FBW: It's people like you that make me thankful that I'm nothing like you. You're such a desperate, pathetic human being. Yeah, you may be thinner and prettier than I am (cuz who isn't, really?), but at least I have my dignity. You have ER. I have Mira and Kirsten. I got the better end of the deal. A present from me to you: THIS

Con Amor Siempre,